I was in a Cozy but Classy hotel. It’s a big hotel and it’s pretty quiet. It was peaceful but the temperature was just right. It’s my birthday today and I’m alone. I am not with my family. They seem to have forgotten me. Yes, let’s not talk about them. We just talked about me. By the way, my name is Albert Camu. My job is as a “BPO agent.” My shift is at night. I sleep in the morning but wake up at night. I don’t know why I haven’t resigned yet. I have been with the company I work for too long but I will never be able to resign. Not because I’m worried and afraid that I might not be able to support myself but because I’m already “institutionalized” in the company. That means I’m used to it when I’m at work. That’s why I’m here every day. During the times when I was not a team leader yet, the type that had just been hired by the company was just quiet. I listen carefully to the instructions on how to do the job properly and since then I have been attending every day. There was a team building that was invited by our former team leader to have a drink. I got drunk and suddenly fell asleep in my apartment. When I woke up in the morning I had coffee. The weather is peaceful and a bit cold. My head still hurts because of the hang-over.
Now it seems like I want to resign from the job. Honestly for me, yes work gives you security to get up every day. But why are so many people still exhausted as if they are not happy or they are even more difficult and tired of their work. When you work with love, you don’t have to get tired of what you’re doing.
What I really want to do for the rest of my life is to be a filmmaker or not so be a writer. This is my passion that I love so much. I did a lot of screenplay for the movie. But it is inevitable to be downgraded.
Downgrade: This is the word that aspiring artists always experience. Why is it that every time an artist creates art, it seems like what people think is …
“You won’t get anything out of that!”
“That won’t feed you!”
“You must work with a salary!”
Yes it’s true, it’s hard to produce no guaranteed results. But this is what I have the love of doing. I’m excited about when I wake up in the morning to work on it rather than when I wake up in the morning, go to work, I haven’t even started work yet but I feel like I want to go home. There is no passion and love in doing and having a meaningless life like it’s nothing in life because it’s valueless.
Passion or Profession?
Often we aspiring artists who are passionate are to be downgraded. But I have a profession. If I choose, passion or profession? I prefer passion. What good is my life if it doesn’t mean anything? Is it just my life to serve the company and pour all my strength until I grow old and die meaningless? I would like to create a unique work or “masterpiece” to make my life worth even if I am a downgrade person.
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